One fine day

it's not easy
the decisions that i've made
i cant be selfish
i have to let u go

hopefully in one fine day
u will understand
it's not for me or my happiness
it's all for u...

there will be no way for us
i've said it like thousand times
u have to move on with ur life
u knw i lost all, i've got nothing

here i am
just trying to fight and push all destiny away
i just need to be alone
yeah i guess it's really over

there is no me and him
u always knw there is no future between me and him
just let me be...
if u r mine god will let us meet again in one fine day

You know who u are...

what am i to u?
i am still keep going with this mistake
i should not....
and u know that

i cant accept ur past
yeah i knw all the things
yeah i try to control these feelings inside here
it mixed up
u burn me with those memories u had
and she still want u eventhough u say no
with those past tht u had, i really cant accept it
i am sorry

forever u and me will never be
no way for us
i cant be her and i will never be her
if u still want to play around
dont blame me for what i'll do for u
this is just a game and no feelings will attach...
i've told u once and it wont be twice, boy...

we'll be fine

let me walk by myself
i am good without anyone around
i am used to it
dont treat me well
i am just scared cant let u go at the end

just let me live
this time let me be me
i cant hold onto what are people talking behind me
i am tired...yes i am denying it
i am ok with it...i can give it up
dont think about me and my fragile heart
it'll getting stronger

better we cut it off now
before i cant let u go at all
i am ok to be alone
as long as u r happy
then i'll be fine at the end

time for us to separate

now the party's over, everybody's gone
left with myself and i
I wonder what went wrong
it's against all from the inside
i am denying all the things
before it's too deep
i just want to stop it

better for us to separate now
i cant continue it anymore
i just scared to keep moving with u
i just cant choose between u and him
U just cant live between me and him...u should knw that...!!!

it's better to stop now before it's too late
better for u to get back with her
she still waiting for u to come back
there will be no ways for us...u and me never was and never will boy

thx for treated me so well
but i cant give u any chances
live ur life well an i'll be fine...
one day when we'll meet again hopefully both of us will be fine
and smile to each other

Confusion

time is not with me anymore
it's keep ticking impatiently
I am lost
where are we?
what are our boundaries?
u just keep going and coming back
in time u rest ur soul
and suddenly i becme so unreal
i am confused
how to let go the past and hold on to my future
yet i just hold onto my past and try to against my future

is it the game?
do u knw it from the start?
am i selfish?
i never want to hurt ppl
i just want this game just between us
no others involve
it cut me once and it still bleeding
i dont want people just come around and join this game

set me free
let me go
just give back my life
and the breath that you've taken from me
only for this time...so i wont waste it anymore
it'll be enough for both of us

Am i Hungover?

with every move i die

Carousel of life

Those memories
yeah i still can recall all of it
i hate how we had our nick name

u called me ur lil princess
but then i am not ur princess anymore
how i hate it until now
i hate how ppl call me a "princess", it reminds me of u alot
because at the end of the day i knw they'll spit me out like u did

if i was ur lil princess then why u hurt me
u supposed to be the one who take care me
some one who protect me not hurting me

life is so cruel...when i believe to that fairy tale which u would be my prince
and set me free from my loneliness jail
and we would live happily ever after
but NO...it is not a fairy tale

the truth is u r not the one
u are hurting me real bad
this game will always like merry-go-round for u
i'll always be the one who chasing u but i will never ever can touch U
u knw how the rules are working right?

yeah we knw it and i am accepting my destiny that we wont be at the same path
but plz dont force to jump on the edge of this cliff
bcoz i've died long time ago since u left
and i just dont want carve anymore pain in here...

Untouched

it hurts so much
is it killing u as much as it's killing me?
why our destiny must be different?
why i fall for u deeper after what we've been through?

i am not regret for what we had and we have...
i am just tortured by the feelings inside here
many great guys come into my life ,they treated me so well
but still i cant choose their heart to replace u

tell me how? every time i try to bury u deep down
still people open it and again im stuck
it's damn hurting if u want to knw how it feels boy

i never knw tht loving u hurt me real bad
and i am hurting those who just way too nice
NOW tell me how? even time cant heal me...
i dont even see my future anymore
since u left me cold and numb over here

this feeling just cant melt anymore
it was melt once but then it become untouched
yeah it totally numb and i am "heartless"

No one ever will

people just see me from the outside
they judge me for who i am not
how can i find someone like u?
someone who never even see me beautiful  from the outside
u are accepting me for who i am
u just knw me from my darkest place

why always u who made me feel comfort
but yet u left me here all alone
u just disappear without explanations
tell me what i did?
i'd change it for u

where's ur love? u gave it once to me
was it real?
u always knw it from the very beginning
no one will ever replace u... just no one

I miss U
I really do miss U

Still...

What's real?
i cant describe it anymore
U left me here still
this time is worst

who am i to you?
I dont even see Us nowadays
why u keep driving me crazy?
i cant replace u at all...i am trying swear to God i am trying...but still all about u surrounding me
should i tell u how it feels? It's hurting me a lot

my broken heart still cant be healed by others
ppl think i am great, who are they can judge me without knwing me?
i even look good on broken mirror, dont u think?
yeah i am mess up and i am not ok

Pieces from the past

what's the point now?
people keep asking what i want?
to be real...i just dont know what i want anymore
i am lost in translation

the world just way too big
it caused many questions tht i cant answer
where all the good things gone?
i lost it all

shadows from the past just dont let me go
or is it me who dont want to let it go?
it just keep scratching me
till the scars wont go away

i never scared to move on
but those memories stick on my steps
maybe right these are the reasons who i am now
and it'll always be

Pieces

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

Have u?

have u ever think about me?
have u ever miss me?
have u ever wish to b wif me?
have u ever see our future?
yes what i mean have u see me in ur future?

it was a mistake from the very beginning
we played the game tht we think it was fun
it's not fun anymore yeah?
at the end one of us being fooled by this stupid game
yeah i am lose in this game
slowly i see u walk away being tired of it

where am i now? i am in the middle of nowhere
i am hanging on there...somewhere really empty
nothing there...even i cant see u or ur heart around...

i dun blame u at all...yes never will
remember it was our game yeah?
it's about win and lose?
and at the end who lose going to be a loser and left out alone
that's the rule...

=)

dont ask me why
dont ask me how
dont ask me what
just dont ask me anythin
be there and understand me

maybe i am not perfect...
yes i am far from perfect...
please dont ask me anythin even though i know u want to know everything

i am not trying to push u away
even if i do....forgive me
i am not trying to be fake
even if i do....u'll see me one day
hold on...be patience
i need learn more...it's hurting when inside here empty
but when i met u...i knew u r different

see me and accept me as who i am
i was born to express the feeling not to impress any1
i am still learning and it hurts ppl sometimes but they wont care
please be there and hold me...i'll change for u and world...
i promise it tht day will come and u'll see the different me and the world
promise me u'll smile at tht day no  tears will be shed....love you friend....always and ever...:)

If Only

tears or smile?

love or lust?

wants or needs?

is it me or her?

what happened to us?

i mean u and me...

where are we heading to?

why all i see is u with her? where am i?

what is she doing between us?

why u gave me tears when u r the only one who can make me smile?

why i loved u when all u feel is lust?

why u want me in ur life when only u need me?

is it me that u want or her who beside u?

i told u once to be patience

distance is never easy...if only u can hold it a bit longer

just if only...

how i wish....never make a wish anymore

coz what i have if only....

U r not alone

maybe us won't be in our dictionary anymore

mybe us will go to the different pathway 

maybe us wont be in each other future

but watever the reasons are

u always know i never leave u

maybe we wont b together

maybe we wont share everythin in one big moment

but u'll never b alone

every1 will take care u for me, even i wont be in urs

i never regret everythin i just regret to losing u

as a friend, partner, and family

u r everythin, u know i'll give whole my life

just to see u happy

but now even we r not together

u still get my respect not as a friend

not as a family

but as a stranger

plz dont regret the moments tht we had....appreciated as i do coz i know it wont happen anymore =)

Destiny?

tell me why should we met?
do u really know how i feel
DAMN...i really being tired and sick of missing u.....!!
my heart kinda numb

u keep all ur lies that u think i never know the truth
i am tired for keep waiting
how i wish u would know how it feels
maybe here i am with all my imperfection
waiting for ur perfection figure to cover my pain
but u wont b able do it at all

here i am begging for ur forgiveness
please let me free
i dont know it's me who cant accept my destiny
or u who keep coming back
Boo...maybe i am not urs but u must know somethin
my heart always urs i never force it to fall for u
but it just falling by law of nature or molecule chemical inside my body
i dont know all i know i want u to be my future..

forgive me for my weakness if u read this

Are we?

please lie to me
it's okay for me
at least u r still around
means i know u r not leaving

i am just tired of this game
can we stop?
but i dont want u leave me here
it just not fun anymore

i try to run, chasing u through ur soul
but u never turn around
i was screaming at the top of my voice
but u never hear it
who am i to u?
do u see me? do u see my soul?
i've given my life...but do u know it?

R u my destiny?
even i sent u a lot of messages through the moon n stars above u still cant feel me
R we one?
R we pieces of heaven?
my soul dry out only for u
but still i cant see my future with u
R we wrong?

still i cant find the answers until now...i am sorry

Is it?

R we really over?
there are nothing from u nowadays
i am holding myself
so tight i am holding on so i wont find u

i am scared
scared to know  the truth that u dont want it anymore
i havent prepared anythin
i am really scared it's the time
time for u to let me go

and at the end i know u'll let me go
us....we just cant holding on and play it anymore
is it the time for us to let go each other?
we were so close but yet we r so far away