Untouched

it hurts so much
is it killing u as much as it's killing me?
why our destiny must be different?
why i fall for u deeper after what we've been through?

i am not regret for what we had and we have...
i am just tortured by the feelings inside here
many great guys come into my life ,they treated me so well
but still i cant choose their heart to replace u

tell me how? every time i try to bury u deep down
still people open it and again im stuck
it's damn hurting if u want to knw how it feels boy

i never knw tht loving u hurt me real bad
and i am hurting those who just way too nice
NOW tell me how? even time cant heal me...
i dont even see my future anymore
since u left me cold and numb over here

this feeling just cant melt anymore
it was melt once but then it become untouched
yeah it totally numb and i am "heartless"

No one ever will

people just see me from the outside
they judge me for who i am not
how can i find someone like u?
someone who never even see me beautiful  from the outside
u are accepting me for who i am
u just knw me from my darkest place

why always u who made me feel comfort
but yet u left me here all alone
u just disappear without explanations
tell me what i did?
i'd change it for u

where's ur love? u gave it once to me
was it real?
u always knw it from the very beginning
no one will ever replace u... just no one

I miss U
I really do miss U

Still...

What's real?
i cant describe it anymore
U left me here still
this time is worst

who am i to you?
I dont even see Us nowadays
why u keep driving me crazy?
i cant replace u at all...i am trying swear to God i am trying...but still all about u surrounding me
should i tell u how it feels? It's hurting me a lot

my broken heart still cant be healed by others
ppl think i am great, who are they can judge me without knwing me?
i even look good on broken mirror, dont u think?
yeah i am mess up and i am not ok

Pieces from the past

what's the point now?
people keep asking what i want?
to be real...i just dont know what i want anymore
i am lost in translation

the world just way too big
it caused many questions tht i cant answer
where all the good things gone?
i lost it all

shadows from the past just dont let me go
or is it me who dont want to let it go?
it just keep scratching me
till the scars wont go away

i never scared to move on
but those memories stick on my steps
maybe right these are the reasons who i am now
and it'll always be

Pieces

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

Have u?

have u ever think about me?
have u ever miss me?
have u ever wish to b wif me?
have u ever see our future?
yes what i mean have u see me in ur future?

it was a mistake from the very beginning
we played the game tht we think it was fun
it's not fun anymore yeah?
at the end one of us being fooled by this stupid game
yeah i am lose in this game
slowly i see u walk away being tired of it

where am i now? i am in the middle of nowhere
i am hanging on there...somewhere really empty
nothing there...even i cant see u or ur heart around...

i dun blame u at all...yes never will
remember it was our game yeah?
it's about win and lose?
and at the end who lose going to be a loser and left out alone
that's the rule...

=)

dont ask me why
dont ask me how
dont ask me what
just dont ask me anythin
be there and understand me

maybe i am not perfect...
yes i am far from perfect...
please dont ask me anythin even though i know u want to know everything

i am not trying to push u away
even if i do....forgive me
i am not trying to be fake
even if i do....u'll see me one day
hold on...be patience
i need learn more...it's hurting when inside here empty
but when i met u...i knew u r different

see me and accept me as who i am
i was born to express the feeling not to impress any1
i am still learning and it hurts ppl sometimes but they wont care
please be there and hold me...i'll change for u and world...
i promise it tht day will come and u'll see the different me and the world
promise me u'll smile at tht day no  tears will be shed....love you friend....always and ever...:)