Am i Hungover?

with every move i die

Carousel of life

Those memories
yeah i still can recall all of it
i hate how we had our nick name

u called me ur lil princess
but then i am not ur princess anymore
how i hate it until now
i hate how ppl call me a "princess", it reminds me of u alot
because at the end of the day i knw they'll spit me out like u did

if i was ur lil princess then why u hurt me
u supposed to be the one who take care me
some one who protect me not hurting me

life is so cruel...when i believe to that fairy tale which u would be my prince
and set me free from my loneliness jail
and we would live happily ever after
but NO...it is not a fairy tale

the truth is u r not the one
u are hurting me real bad
this game will always like merry-go-round for u
i'll always be the one who chasing u but i will never ever can touch U
u knw how the rules are working right?

yeah we knw it and i am accepting my destiny that we wont be at the same path
but plz dont force to jump on the edge of this cliff
bcoz i've died long time ago since u left
and i just dont want carve anymore pain in here...

Untouched

it hurts so much
is it killing u as much as it's killing me?
why our destiny must be different?
why i fall for u deeper after what we've been through?

i am not regret for what we had and we have...
i am just tortured by the feelings inside here
many great guys come into my life ,they treated me so well
but still i cant choose their heart to replace u

tell me how? every time i try to bury u deep down
still people open it and again im stuck
it's damn hurting if u want to knw how it feels boy

i never knw tht loving u hurt me real bad
and i am hurting those who just way too nice
NOW tell me how? even time cant heal me...
i dont even see my future anymore
since u left me cold and numb over here

this feeling just cant melt anymore
it was melt once but then it become untouched
yeah it totally numb and i am "heartless"

No one ever will

people just see me from the outside
they judge me for who i am not
how can i find someone like u?
someone who never even see me beautiful  from the outside
u are accepting me for who i am
u just knw me from my darkest place

why always u who made me feel comfort
but yet u left me here all alone
u just disappear without explanations
tell me what i did?
i'd change it for u

where's ur love? u gave it once to me
was it real?
u always knw it from the very beginning
no one will ever replace u... just no one

I miss U
I really do miss U

Still...

What's real?
i cant describe it anymore
U left me here still
this time is worst

who am i to you?
I dont even see Us nowadays
why u keep driving me crazy?
i cant replace u at all...i am trying swear to God i am trying...but still all about u surrounding me
should i tell u how it feels? It's hurting me a lot

my broken heart still cant be healed by others
ppl think i am great, who are they can judge me without knwing me?
i even look good on broken mirror, dont u think?
yeah i am mess up and i am not ok

Pieces from the past

what's the point now?
people keep asking what i want?
to be real...i just dont know what i want anymore
i am lost in translation

the world just way too big
it caused many questions tht i cant answer
where all the good things gone?
i lost it all

shadows from the past just dont let me go
or is it me who dont want to let it go?
it just keep scratching me
till the scars wont go away

i never scared to move on
but those memories stick on my steps
maybe right these are the reasons who i am now
and it'll always be