After all

It's hurting
i even cant move forward
how i wish u were here
missing u really the worst feeling
i am numb...i even cant feel wat i really want inside here
how i wish...

i know we're heading no where
but why?
i still want u after all?
i just cant let u go
trying so hard make myself exhausted
but still at the end of the day u r the only one who i really want

help me to get u off from my mind
my only wish...
my only hope...
maybe it'll hurt me badly to lose u
but better than when we are together we are Nothing

Life

where the heart is?
why we are hurting those who love us?
why we pushed them away when we really want them?
why love cant be a reason for ppl to hold their own pride?
why ppl who u really trust waste u like a shit?

i dont even know what are the main points of all these problems after all...
ppl want others to be honest, share everythin in good n bad but still
they are the one who stabbed us from behind...

if really love could be the reason for everythin...
will tears still running down on those innocent faces?
will the frown on the face change to the smile?

after all...those questions will still remain the same
betrayal really hurting but when u can stand back and be strong
karma will pay off all ur pain...i do believe in it....no matter how many mouths out there going around still they wont be satisfy with their own life...

A Man of Words and Not Deeds

A man of words and not of deeds 
Is like a garden full of weeds
And when the weeds begin to grow 
It's like a garden full of snow 
And when the snow begins to fall 
It's like a bird upon the wall 
And when the bird away does fly 
It's like an eagle in the sky 
And when the sky begins to roar 
It's like a lion at the door 
And when the door begins to crack 
It's like a stick across your back 
And when your back begins to smart
It's like a penknife in your heart 
And when your heart begins to bleed 
You're dead, and dead, and dead indeed.

Bleeding Heart

My heart
where is it going?
i dont feel anything...is it numb?
Ouch do u see it? it has hole...yeah really deep inside here
it's still bleeding...

If u think that i am OK u were wrong then...
i am here all alone still hold this pain
i can feel it...really hurt me so much
if u think i am happy u were wrong...i never b the same girl who u met a few years ago...

i wish i could find the right person who could hold my pain
with me...and here to save me...but NO they couldnt make me survive
where shud i go? i cant escape anymore
who shud i lean on? i am alone

yeah u must be laugh out loud...i am here devastated and still love u...

Space bound

We touch, I feel a rush 
We clutch, it isn't much 
But it's enough to make me wonder what's in store for us 
It's lust, it's torturous 
You must be a sorceress cause you just 
Did the impossible 
Gain my trust, don't play games it'll be dangerous 
If you fuck me over 
Cause if I get burnt, I'ma show you what its like to hurt 
Cause I been treated like dirt before ya 
And love is evil 
Spell it backwards I'll show ya 

Nobody knows me, I'm cold 
Walk down this road all alone 
It's no ones fault but my own 
Its the path I've chosen to go 
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion whatsoever so 
Don't ask me why, I have no love for these mufuckin' hoes 
Bloodsuckin succubus, what the fuck is up with this 
I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this 
Its sucks but its exactly what I thought it would be 
Like tryin' to start over 
I gotta hole in my heart, I'm some kind of emotional roller-coaster 
Somethin' I won't go on til you toy with my emotion so its over 
It's like an explosion, every time I hold ya wasn't jokin' when I told ya 
Ya take my breathe away 
You're a supernova.. and I'm a  

I'ma space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon 
And I'm aiming right at you 
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June 
And I'm aiming right at you 

I'll do whatever it takes 
When I'm with you, I get the shakes 
My body aches when I ain't 
With you I have zero strength 
There's no limit on how far I would go 
No boundaries, no lengths 
Why do we say that until we get that person that we think's 
Gonna be that one and then once we get 'em, it's never the same 
You want them when they don't want you 
Soon as they do, feelings change 
It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate 
I wasn't looking but I stumbled onto you, must've been fate 
But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take 
Lets cut to the chase 
But a door shuts in your face 
Promise me if I cave in and break and leave myself open 
That I won't be makin' a mistake, cause I'm a 

I'ma space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon 
And I'm aiming right at you 
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June 
And I'm aiming right at you

So after a year and 6 months 
It's no longer me that you want 
But I love you so much it hurts 
Never mistreated you once 
I poured my heart out to you 
Let down my guard, swear to god 
I'll blow my brains in your lap 
Lay here and die in your arms 
Drop to my knees and I'm pleading 
I'm trying to stop you from leaving 
You won't even listen, so fuck it 
I'm trying to stop you from breathing 
I put both hands on your throat 
I sit on top of you, squeezing 
Til I snap ya neck like a Popsicle stick 
Ain't no possible reason, I could think of 
To let you walk up out this house, and let you live 
Tears streamed down both of my cheeks 
Then I let you just go and just give 
And before I put that gun to my temple 
I told you this 

And I would have did anything for you 
To show you how much I adored you 
But it's over now 
It's too late to save our love 
Just promise me you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star cause I'm a 

Space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon 
And I'm aiming right at you  
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June 
and im so lost without you 

Poison of Love

the truth is i never believe in love
i hate it since i knew it
i hate it since it hurt me
i hate it since u bcame the one who i love
i hate since u have to walk away from my life
i hate it since u said those 3 words and 8 letters
and the worst part i hate it since i fall for u deeper..

we are not meant to be
we are just  two human being who like to play around
can u see it clearly?
see me here i am trembling, i am  scared....
we know where all games are heading to...
we know it ABSOFUCKINLUTELY....but we keep deny it...
we just cant let each other go...this sweetest sin bcome poison in our relationship

i do love you but how long we keep playing and hurting like this??  

from the bottom of my broken heart

"never look back" we said

how was i to know i'd miss so?

loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind

where do i go?

and you didnt hear all my joy through my tears

all my hopes through my fears

did you know?

still i miss u somehow?

from the bottom of my broken heart

there's just a thing or two i'd like you to know

you were my first love, you were my true love

from the first kisses to the very last rose

from the bottom of my broken heart

even though time will find me somebody new

you were my real love, 

i never knew love till there was you

"baby, please stay" i said

give our love chance for one more day

we could have worked things out

taking time is what love's all about

but you put a dart

through my dreams, through my heart

and back where i started again

never thought it would end

you promised urself but to somebody else

and you made it perfectly clear

still i wish u were here now

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