Destiny?

tell me why should we met?
do u really know how i feel
DAMN...i really being tired and sick of missing u.....!!
my heart kinda numb

u keep all ur lies that u think i never know the truth
i am tired for keep waiting
how i wish u would know how it feels
maybe here i am with all my imperfection
waiting for ur perfection figure to cover my pain
but u wont b able do it at all

here i am begging for ur forgiveness
please let me free
i dont know it's me who cant accept my destiny
or u who keep coming back
Boo...maybe i am not urs but u must know somethin
my heart always urs i never force it to fall for u
but it just falling by law of nature or molecule chemical inside my body
i dont know all i know i want u to be my future..

forgive me for my weakness if u read this

Are we?

please lie to me
it's okay for me
at least u r still around
means i know u r not leaving

i am just tired of this game
can we stop?
but i dont want u leave me here
it just not fun anymore

i try to run, chasing u through ur soul
but u never turn around
i was screaming at the top of my voice
but u never hear it
who am i to u?
do u see me? do u see my soul?
i've given my life...but do u know it?

R u my destiny?
even i sent u a lot of messages through the moon n stars above u still cant feel me
R we one?
R we pieces of heaven?
my soul dry out only for u
but still i cant see my future with u
R we wrong?

still i cant find the answers until now...i am sorry

Is it?

R we really over?
there are nothing from u nowadays
i am holding myself
so tight i am holding on so i wont find u

i am scared
scared to know  the truth that u dont want it anymore
i havent prepared anythin
i am really scared it's the time
time for u to let me go

and at the end i know u'll let me go
us....we just cant holding on and play it anymore
is it the time for us to let go each other?
we were so close but yet we r so far away

After all

It's hurting
i even cant move forward
how i wish u were here
missing u really the worst feeling
i am numb...i even cant feel wat i really want inside here
how i wish...

i know we're heading no where
but why?
i still want u after all?
i just cant let u go
trying so hard make myself exhausted
but still at the end of the day u r the only one who i really want

help me to get u off from my mind
my only wish...
my only hope...
maybe it'll hurt me badly to lose u
but better than when we are together we are Nothing

Life

where the heart is?
why we are hurting those who love us?
why we pushed them away when we really want them?
why love cant be a reason for ppl to hold their own pride?
why ppl who u really trust waste u like a shit?

i dont even know what are the main points of all these problems after all...
ppl want others to be honest, share everythin in good n bad but still
they are the one who stabbed us from behind...

if really love could be the reason for everythin...
will tears still running down on those innocent faces?
will the frown on the face change to the smile?

after all...those questions will still remain the same
betrayal really hurting but when u can stand back and be strong
karma will pay off all ur pain...i do believe in it....no matter how many mouths out there going around still they wont be satisfy with their own life...

A Man of Words and Not Deeds

A man of words and not of deeds 
Is like a garden full of weeds
And when the weeds begin to grow 
It's like a garden full of snow 
And when the snow begins to fall 
It's like a bird upon the wall 
And when the bird away does fly 
It's like an eagle in the sky 
And when the sky begins to roar 
It's like a lion at the door 
And when the door begins to crack 
It's like a stick across your back 
And when your back begins to smart
It's like a penknife in your heart 
And when your heart begins to bleed 
You're dead, and dead, and dead indeed.

Bleeding Heart

My heart
where is it going?
i dont feel anything...is it numb?
Ouch do u see it? it has hole...yeah really deep inside here
it's still bleeding...

If u think that i am OK u were wrong then...
i am here all alone still hold this pain
i can feel it...really hurt me so much
if u think i am happy u were wrong...i never b the same girl who u met a few years ago...

i wish i could find the right person who could hold my pain
with me...and here to save me...but NO they couldnt make me survive
where shud i go? i cant escape anymore
who shud i lean on? i am alone

yeah u must be laugh out loud...i am here devastated and still love u...