Pieces

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

Have u?

have u ever think about me?
have u ever miss me?
have u ever wish to b wif me?
have u ever see our future?
yes what i mean have u see me in ur future?

it was a mistake from the very beginning
we played the game tht we think it was fun
it's not fun anymore yeah?
at the end one of us being fooled by this stupid game
yeah i am lose in this game
slowly i see u walk away being tired of it

where am i now? i am in the middle of nowhere
i am hanging on there...somewhere really empty
nothing there...even i cant see u or ur heart around...

i dun blame u at all...yes never will
remember it was our game yeah?
it's about win and lose?
and at the end who lose going to be a loser and left out alone
that's the rule...

=)

dont ask me why
dont ask me how
dont ask me what
just dont ask me anythin
be there and understand me

maybe i am not perfect...
yes i am far from perfect...
please dont ask me anythin even though i know u want to know everything

i am not trying to push u away
even if i do....forgive me
i am not trying to be fake
even if i do....u'll see me one day
hold on...be patience
i need learn more...it's hurting when inside here empty
but when i met u...i knew u r different

see me and accept me as who i am
i was born to express the feeling not to impress any1
i am still learning and it hurts ppl sometimes but they wont care
please be there and hold me...i'll change for u and world...
i promise it tht day will come and u'll see the different me and the world
promise me u'll smile at tht day no  tears will be shed....love you friend....always and ever...:)

If Only

tears or smile?

love or lust?

wants or needs?

is it me or her?

what happened to us?

i mean u and me...

where are we heading to?

why all i see is u with her? where am i?

what is she doing between us?

why u gave me tears when u r the only one who can make me smile?

why i loved u when all u feel is lust?

why u want me in ur life when only u need me?

is it me that u want or her who beside u?

i told u once to be patience

distance is never easy...if only u can hold it a bit longer

just if only...

how i wish....never make a wish anymore

coz what i have if only....

U r not alone

maybe us won't be in our dictionary anymore

mybe us will go to the different pathway 

maybe us wont be in each other future

but watever the reasons are

u always know i never leave u

maybe we wont b together

maybe we wont share everythin in one big moment

but u'll never b alone

every1 will take care u for me, even i wont be in urs

i never regret everythin i just regret to losing u

as a friend, partner, and family

u r everythin, u know i'll give whole my life

just to see u happy

but now even we r not together

u still get my respect not as a friend

not as a family

but as a stranger

plz dont regret the moments tht we had....appreciated as i do coz i know it wont happen anymore =)

Destiny?

tell me why should we met?
do u really know how i feel
DAMN...i really being tired and sick of missing u.....!!
my heart kinda numb

u keep all ur lies that u think i never know the truth
i am tired for keep waiting
how i wish u would know how it feels
maybe here i am with all my imperfection
waiting for ur perfection figure to cover my pain
but u wont b able do it at all

here i am begging for ur forgiveness
please let me free
i dont know it's me who cant accept my destiny
or u who keep coming back
Boo...maybe i am not urs but u must know somethin
my heart always urs i never force it to fall for u
but it just falling by law of nature or molecule chemical inside my body
i dont know all i know i want u to be my future..

forgive me for my weakness if u read this

Are we?

please lie to me
it's okay for me
at least u r still around
means i know u r not leaving

i am just tired of this game
can we stop?
but i dont want u leave me here
it just not fun anymore

i try to run, chasing u through ur soul
but u never turn around
i was screaming at the top of my voice
but u never hear it
who am i to u?
do u see me? do u see my soul?
i've given my life...but do u know it?

R u my destiny?
even i sent u a lot of messages through the moon n stars above u still cant feel me
R we one?
R we pieces of heaven?
my soul dry out only for u
but still i cant see my future with u
R we wrong?

still i cant find the answers until now...i am sorry