Pieces from the past

what's the point now?
people keep asking what i want?
to be real...i just dont know what i want anymore
i am lost in translation

the world just way too big
it caused many questions tht i cant answer
where all the good things gone?
i lost it all

shadows from the past just dont let me go
or is it me who dont want to let it go?
it just keep scratching me
till the scars wont go away

i never scared to move on
but those memories stick on my steps
maybe right these are the reasons who i am now
and it'll always be

Pieces

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

Have u?

have u ever think about me?
have u ever miss me?
have u ever wish to b wif me?
have u ever see our future?
yes what i mean have u see me in ur future?

it was a mistake from the very beginning
we played the game tht we think it was fun
it's not fun anymore yeah?
at the end one of us being fooled by this stupid game
yeah i am lose in this game
slowly i see u walk away being tired of it

where am i now? i am in the middle of nowhere
i am hanging on there...somewhere really empty
nothing there...even i cant see u or ur heart around...

i dun blame u at all...yes never will
remember it was our game yeah?
it's about win and lose?
and at the end who lose going to be a loser and left out alone
that's the rule...

=)

dont ask me why
dont ask me how
dont ask me what
just dont ask me anythin
be there and understand me

maybe i am not perfect...
yes i am far from perfect...
please dont ask me anythin even though i know u want to know everything

i am not trying to push u away
even if i do....forgive me
i am not trying to be fake
even if i do....u'll see me one day
hold on...be patience
i need learn more...it's hurting when inside here empty
but when i met u...i knew u r different

see me and accept me as who i am
i was born to express the feeling not to impress any1
i am still learning and it hurts ppl sometimes but they wont care
please be there and hold me...i'll change for u and world...
i promise it tht day will come and u'll see the different me and the world
promise me u'll smile at tht day no  tears will be shed....love you friend....always and ever...:)

If Only

tears or smile?

love or lust?

wants or needs?

is it me or her?

what happened to us?

i mean u and me...

where are we heading to?

why all i see is u with her? where am i?

what is she doing between us?

why u gave me tears when u r the only one who can make me smile?

why i loved u when all u feel is lust?

why u want me in ur life when only u need me?

is it me that u want or her who beside u?

i told u once to be patience

distance is never easy...if only u can hold it a bit longer

just if only...

how i wish....never make a wish anymore

coz what i have if only....

U r not alone

maybe us won't be in our dictionary anymore

mybe us will go to the different pathway 

maybe us wont be in each other future

but watever the reasons are

u always know i never leave u

maybe we wont b together

maybe we wont share everythin in one big moment

but u'll never b alone

every1 will take care u for me, even i wont be in urs

i never regret everythin i just regret to losing u

as a friend, partner, and family

u r everythin, u know i'll give whole my life

just to see u happy

but now even we r not together

u still get my respect not as a friend

not as a family

but as a stranger

plz dont regret the moments tht we had....appreciated as i do coz i know it wont happen anymore =)

Destiny?

tell me why should we met?
do u really know how i feel
DAMN...i really being tired and sick of missing u.....!!
my heart kinda numb

u keep all ur lies that u think i never know the truth
i am tired for keep waiting
how i wish u would know how it feels
maybe here i am with all my imperfection
waiting for ur perfection figure to cover my pain
but u wont b able do it at all

here i am begging for ur forgiveness
please let me free
i dont know it's me who cant accept my destiny
or u who keep coming back
Boo...maybe i am not urs but u must know somethin
my heart always urs i never force it to fall for u
but it just falling by law of nature or molecule chemical inside my body
i dont know all i know i want u to be my future..

forgive me for my weakness if u read this

Are we?

please lie to me
it's okay for me
at least u r still around
means i know u r not leaving

i am just tired of this game
can we stop?
but i dont want u leave me here
it just not fun anymore

i try to run, chasing u through ur soul
but u never turn around
i was screaming at the top of my voice
but u never hear it
who am i to u?
do u see me? do u see my soul?
i've given my life...but do u know it?

R u my destiny?
even i sent u a lot of messages through the moon n stars above u still cant feel me
R we one?
R we pieces of heaven?
my soul dry out only for u
but still i cant see my future with u
R we wrong?

still i cant find the answers until now...i am sorry

Is it?

R we really over?
there are nothing from u nowadays
i am holding myself
so tight i am holding on so i wont find u

i am scared
scared to know  the truth that u dont want it anymore
i havent prepared anythin
i am really scared it's the time
time for u to let me go

and at the end i know u'll let me go
us....we just cant holding on and play it anymore
is it the time for us to let go each other?
we were so close but yet we r so far away

After all

It's hurting
i even cant move forward
how i wish u were here
missing u really the worst feeling
i am numb...i even cant feel wat i really want inside here
how i wish...

i know we're heading no where
but why?
i still want u after all?
i just cant let u go
trying so hard make myself exhausted
but still at the end of the day u r the only one who i really want

help me to get u off from my mind
my only wish...
my only hope...
maybe it'll hurt me badly to lose u
but better than when we are together we are Nothing

Life

where the heart is?
why we are hurting those who love us?
why we pushed them away when we really want them?
why love cant be a reason for ppl to hold their own pride?
why ppl who u really trust waste u like a shit?

i dont even know what are the main points of all these problems after all...
ppl want others to be honest, share everythin in good n bad but still
they are the one who stabbed us from behind...

if really love could be the reason for everythin...
will tears still running down on those innocent faces?
will the frown on the face change to the smile?

after all...those questions will still remain the same
betrayal really hurting but when u can stand back and be strong
karma will pay off all ur pain...i do believe in it....no matter how many mouths out there going around still they wont be satisfy with their own life...