A Man of Words and Not Deeds

A man of words and not of deeds 
Is like a garden full of weeds
And when the weeds begin to grow 
It's like a garden full of snow 
And when the snow begins to fall 
It's like a bird upon the wall 
And when the bird away does fly 
It's like an eagle in the sky 
And when the sky begins to roar 
It's like a lion at the door 
And when the door begins to crack 
It's like a stick across your back 
And when your back begins to smart
It's like a penknife in your heart 
And when your heart begins to bleed 
You're dead, and dead, and dead indeed.

Bleeding Heart

My heart
where is it going?
i dont feel anything...is it numb?
Ouch do u see it? it has hole...yeah really deep inside here
it's still bleeding...

If u think that i am OK u were wrong then...
i am here all alone still hold this pain
i can feel it...really hurt me so much
if u think i am happy u were wrong...i never b the same girl who u met a few years ago...

i wish i could find the right person who could hold my pain
with me...and here to save me...but NO they couldnt make me survive
where shud i go? i cant escape anymore
who shud i lean on? i am alone

yeah u must be laugh out loud...i am here devastated and still love u...

Space bound

We touch, I feel a rush 
We clutch, it isn't much 
But it's enough to make me wonder what's in store for us 
It's lust, it's torturous 
You must be a sorceress cause you just 
Did the impossible 
Gain my trust, don't play games it'll be dangerous 
If you fuck me over 
Cause if I get burnt, I'ma show you what its like to hurt 
Cause I been treated like dirt before ya 
And love is evil 
Spell it backwards I'll show ya 

Nobody knows me, I'm cold 
Walk down this road all alone 
It's no ones fault but my own 
Its the path I've chosen to go 
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion whatsoever so 
Don't ask me why, I have no love for these mufuckin' hoes 
Bloodsuckin succubus, what the fuck is up with this 
I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this 
Its sucks but its exactly what I thought it would be 
Like tryin' to start over 
I gotta hole in my heart, I'm some kind of emotional roller-coaster 
Somethin' I won't go on til you toy with my emotion so its over 
It's like an explosion, every time I hold ya wasn't jokin' when I told ya 
Ya take my breathe away 
You're a supernova.. and I'm a  

I'ma space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon 
And I'm aiming right at you 
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June 
And I'm aiming right at you 

I'll do whatever it takes 
When I'm with you, I get the shakes 
My body aches when I ain't 
With you I have zero strength 
There's no limit on how far I would go 
No boundaries, no lengths 
Why do we say that until we get that person that we think's 
Gonna be that one and then once we get 'em, it's never the same 
You want them when they don't want you 
Soon as they do, feelings change 
It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate 
I wasn't looking but I stumbled onto you, must've been fate 
But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take 
Lets cut to the chase 
But a door shuts in your face 
Promise me if I cave in and break and leave myself open 
That I won't be makin' a mistake, cause I'm a 

I'ma space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon 
And I'm aiming right at you 
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June 
And I'm aiming right at you

So after a year and 6 months 
It's no longer me that you want 
But I love you so much it hurts 
Never mistreated you once 
I poured my heart out to you 
Let down my guard, swear to god 
I'll blow my brains in your lap 
Lay here and die in your arms 
Drop to my knees and I'm pleading 
I'm trying to stop you from leaving 
You won't even listen, so fuck it 
I'm trying to stop you from breathing 
I put both hands on your throat 
I sit on top of you, squeezing 
Til I snap ya neck like a Popsicle stick 
Ain't no possible reason, I could think of 
To let you walk up out this house, and let you live 
Tears streamed down both of my cheeks 
Then I let you just go and just give 
And before I put that gun to my temple 
I told you this 

And I would have did anything for you 
To show you how much I adored you 
But it's over now 
It's too late to save our love 
Just promise me you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star cause I'm a 

Space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon 
And I'm aiming right at you  
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June 
and im so lost without you 

Poison of Love

the truth is i never believe in love
i hate it since i knew it
i hate it since it hurt me
i hate it since u bcame the one who i love
i hate since u have to walk away from my life
i hate it since u said those 3 words and 8 letters
and the worst part i hate it since i fall for u deeper..

we are not meant to be
we are just  two human being who like to play around
can u see it clearly?
see me here i am trembling, i am  scared....
we know where all games are heading to...
we know it ABSOFUCKINLUTELY....but we keep deny it...
we just cant let each other go...this sweetest sin bcome poison in our relationship

i do love you but how long we keep playing and hurting like this??  

from the bottom of my broken heart

"never look back" we said

how was i to know i'd miss so?

loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind

where do i go?

and you didnt hear all my joy through my tears

all my hopes through my fears

did you know?

still i miss u somehow?

from the bottom of my broken heart

there's just a thing or two i'd like you to know

you were my first love, you were my true love

from the first kisses to the very last rose

from the bottom of my broken heart

even though time will find me somebody new

you were my real love, 

i never knew love till there was you

"baby, please stay" i said

give our love chance for one more day

we could have worked things out

taking time is what love's all about

but you put a dart

through my dreams, through my heart

and back where i started again

never thought it would end

you promised urself but to somebody else

and you made it perfectly clear

still i wish u were here now

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O39B4gf2ftA

Numb...:((

my heart numb how i wish all of this is really our games...
everything has changed and i dont know what should i do..
i am giving u all inside of me...
i throw my pride and always show my feelings to you...
but it never works out for us..

i want real us..
i know it's impossible...
yeah i am lil princess who believe in happy ending fairytale
i only want u to be honest with urself, me and us...

now i really dunno what shud i expected from u after all...
i really comfortably numb...
this time i promise u...if u never try hard to get me back i wont stay..
this time is ur time...not me anymore...i am tired to keep chasing you who never show me anything...really nothing...:(
it's ur war...not mine...once u let me go i'll never back...i really do mean it...even though i know one day i'll miss u in my lonely days...i am hurting real bad in our happiness...:((

Secret love

maybe this is my destiny
admire some1 without being loved
it's ok for me
as long as u r happy in ur life

it's such a long time i am hiding this feeling
waiting for ur heart to welcome myself
it's ok for me
loving you is my own happiness

i want u to know here i am waiting for you
even though i have to wait till the end of my life
and wishing this feeling will be endlessly stay

please let me to hug you for only this time
to say goodbye forever
and let this feeling be happy even just a second

Do you?

please tell me have you ever love me?
yes do you love me?
all those questions still remain in my mind
i really dont know what u feel about me...

we are just too far to know each other heart
is it what we want? depends on each other? i cant relieve those questions
i never know the reasons why...
u never say those 3 words or show me anything...
u r making me confused, i am hanging here dont u see me?
i need a sign, i need ur anwer, i need ur statement babe....please dont torturing me anymore...:(
it real hurt...how i wish u were here...

if u dont love me, let me go i do try to forget u...i still keep on forgetting u...:(
i dont know why we are playing our heart...i dont feel it fun anymore
i do sad...my wish i could see u one day...and i know it's impossible
but all i know...i am fall in love with you baby...<3<3

Someday

someday i know u will regret coz u let me go
someday i know u will regret coz u let me down
someday when i see u around i will just smile at you
someday i wont be the same anymore
someday when u beg for me i wont go down for u anymore
someday when my world is back...u wont be in it anymore
someday when u see me u will regret to leave me

yes i do believe u'll regret to leave me boy
no matter how bad u treated me or me who treated u bad
i still not worth living in ur torturing shadow
life is keep moving on
time is changing
i don't want waste any more time just to cry over you
some1 who doesn't even care for me....i had enough...
even i do missing you...but someday i do believe u'll get back just want me back
i do believe someday us....no more story between us

when that day comes...u and me, us just a history
believe me when i said so
coz i know....
maybe now my heart still open too big coz the pain wont go away...
but someday...one day in that fine day u'll regret to lose me as a girl who ever be present in ur life even just a blink of eyes...bcoz i am PRECIOUS....

how i wish

how i wish u cried like a baby
how i wish u felt the same pain
how i wish u asked for my apologizes
how i wish u knelt beg for me back
how i wish ur heart broken into the pieces

how i wish....my only wish just want u back into my life
is it too much?
yeah i think for a man like you will be too much right?
i was sarcastic laughing for my pathetic life coz u spit me out
after you tossed my world upside down..
this pain still remain....

i do try to forget u...i keep on forgetting to forget about u, about us...
but still i am missing u at the end...
ur words, ur touched still linger at me...tell me how i have to "delete" u in my life?
u even didnt give me a chances to made it...not even an explanation..
no words came out from u...tell me how i shud move on when my heart stuck on u?

no matter how hard i've tried...i still crying...i still in pain...and the worst part....I am MISSing YOU....

Pain

every time thinking of u my heart become so sick
why u have to left me breathless?
why we couldn't make it?
is it our faults to be in love with different ways?
until now i still cant figure all things out...

time is keep changing
i cant return back all things that we've done
recall all memories is the only thing that i can do
the pain that us carved in our heart must be stayed forever
it must be stayed as a crack which will hurt us...

seeing u nowadays killing me softly...
it's like my heart jump down to my stomach...do u know how it feels?
how i wish u knew it...coz i want u crying with me every night
when the morning comes, i always afraid to walk out from my safety zone to c the world
coz i afraid life will laugh to my pathetic world which desperately need hope coz losing you..

how i wish someday, some1's out there gonna pick all the pieces and glue it back together
maybe not now...but i believe someday...

love is love

if love is hurt why we still want it so badly?
if love is a poison why we still want to try it?
if love was a mistake, why human being want break the rules to make this mistake?

a lot of questions that remain but still there are no logical answers when it comes to love things.
is it a mistake when u chose a wrong man/ woman as Ur partner?
is it our heart's fault to fall for some1 who even doesn't care bout our heart?

all i know loving some1 never be a big mistake
it isn't heart's fault when it choose the wrong person to be in love with
it just a heart which really fragile and need to be taking care

love is an experience
love is pure
love is tragedy
love is tears
love is pain
love is sin
love is happiness
love is cherish
love is mistake
love is smile
love is sincere
love is sadness
watever it is love is love...this feeling will be inside human's heart forever like it or not bcoz love is true...<3<3

P.S yeah maybe true i couldnt take care ur heart, i did hurt u...but i do care about u...and i was falling for u long time before u did...if u think i was a mistake i am sorry coz u have broke ur rules to tried it with me...thx for ur love...*some1 out there*

crushed

Always thought someday you would notice me, more than friends you would see me differently….
Then I heard you’re so in love with her
And now where am I?

I’m crushed so crushed
cause I always thought that it would be the two of us
And I’m dying inside, every time I see you walking hand in hand
It just makes me cry my tears don’t seem to dry and that’s why, I’m crushed

Used to be couldn’t wait to talk to me
You would share your secrets you would share your dreams you would tell me everything…
if I could only hold you now…
Now It’s her who gets to be your girl and kiss your lips

I was getting up the nerve to finally tell you all the things I feel for you
Now everything is wrong, the chance is gone
She’s come along and ripped my dreams in two

And baby i am crushed….:’(

Beauty from the pain

The lights go out all around me...One last candle to keep out the night and then the darkness surrounds me...
I know I'm alive, but I feel like I died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grown colder
I feel like I'm slipping away

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

Here I am at the end of me, trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope, this night's been so long
I cling to your promise, there will be a dawn

After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there will be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today...Someday I'll hope again
And there will be beauty from pain and you'll bring beauty from my pain

Time will heal

Hard times flowing and my eyes couldn't see stars shining
My heart couldn't feel the beauty of the rising sun
And I'm lost like a bottle that floats in the sea forever
Will somebody pick up my hope? Will somebody try? Will I realize?

cause it's broken, Something got broken like stolen
Stolen like if it was stolen And hurting
I have been hurting and now Only time will tell & will heal

Can't believe it's over, I watched the whole thing fall
If I only knew days were slipping past, that the good things never last

Just pieces of truth that I chose to keep
No matter if now they are gone, No matter if I am alone
Still I can get back on my feet and walk on...
As I know there was something to learn...
I know there will always be more worth moving on for...:)

your memories still stick to me as you were part of me...